I can't do this right now. Please? For most people this is considered a breakdown, but for me this is...normal. Being sick made my moods go bonkers, AND I stopped taking my lithium for a few days because of the antibiotics. And oh look what happened. I'm a fucking idiot.
I've been consistently crying, eating, and thinking about getting something else pierced for the last 3 days. So does this (plus other things, don't worry) mean I'm depressed or manic? Oh hey, it's BOTH.
Like I said, I'm a fucking idiot. Caitlin is texting me and she's all baby happy and I just wanna sit around and do nothing until forever.
I emailed Madison's dad about living in her basement last week, and he called me but I never called back. Partially because I don't want to, partially because talking on the phone with strangers make my anxiety skyrocket. I emailed him today and he said to just let him know when I want to move in and how long I want to stay, so at least I can actually still live there.
WHY DO I FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING HAS GOTTEN WORSE SINCE MY DIAGNOSIS? Apparently that's pretty normal - you're diagnosed and you start to become more aware of your emotional swings. I should probably do some sort of mood charting, but I don't even want to start, because I won't remember to do it and then I'll be angry with myself later for not.
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