How to make April 2011 pretty much awful:
1. Bronchitis
2. Asthma + Bronchitis
3. Stop bipolar meds in exchange for antibiotics and steroids for the bronchitis and asthma
4. No eating because of illnesses
5. Medication change from lithium to oxcarbazepine
6. Oxcarbazepine causing insomnia
7. Irritate tendon and nerve in right elbow
8. Two weeks later tear TFCC in right wrist
9. Moving across town while injured
10. Skip work because of a combination of wrist and elbow pain and medication wooziness
11. No internet for almost the entire month
12. Force myself to stay away from the tattoo parlor
Showing posts with label sick. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sick. Show all posts
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
I need someone to tell me to take my meds.
I can't do this right now. Please? For most people this is considered a breakdown, but for me this is...normal. Being sick made my moods go bonkers, AND I stopped taking my lithium for a few days because of the antibiotics. And oh look what happened. I'm a fucking idiot.
I've been consistently crying, eating, and thinking about getting something else pierced for the last 3 days. So does this (plus other things, don't worry) mean I'm depressed or manic? Oh hey, it's BOTH.
Like I said, I'm a fucking idiot. Caitlin is texting me and she's all baby happy and I just wanna sit around and do nothing until forever.
I emailed Madison's dad about living in her basement last week, and he called me but I never called back. Partially because I don't want to, partially because talking on the phone with strangers make my anxiety skyrocket. I emailed him today and he said to just let him know when I want to move in and how long I want to stay, so at least I can actually still live there.
WHY DO I FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING HAS GOTTEN WORSE SINCE MY DIAGNOSIS? Apparently that's pretty normal - you're diagnosed and you start to become more aware of your emotional swings. I should probably do some sort of mood charting, but I don't even want to start, because I won't remember to do it and then I'll be angry with myself later for not.
I've been consistently crying, eating, and thinking about getting something else pierced for the last 3 days. So does this (plus other things, don't worry) mean I'm depressed or manic? Oh hey, it's BOTH.
Like I said, I'm a fucking idiot. Caitlin is texting me and she's all baby happy and I just wanna sit around and do nothing until forever.
I emailed Madison's dad about living in her basement last week, and he called me but I never called back. Partially because I don't want to, partially because talking on the phone with strangers make my anxiety skyrocket. I emailed him today and he said to just let him know when I want to move in and how long I want to stay, so at least I can actually still live there.
WHY DO I FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING HAS GOTTEN WORSE SINCE MY DIAGNOSIS? Apparently that's pretty normal - you're diagnosed and you start to become more aware of your emotional swings. I should probably do some sort of mood charting, but I don't even want to start, because I won't remember to do it and then I'll be angry with myself later for not.
Monday, April 4, 2011
down with the sickness
I have bronchitis. I think being sick made my moods worse. I don't really feel like writing anything.
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