yesterday I joined MDJunction support groups for bipolar disorder, just to try and learn some things about myself from others who have more experience than I do.
I learned another symptom of hypomania/mania that reconfirms my diagnosis: hallucinations. I don't see bugs or mice crawling when they're not there or anything like that. I see faces in ceilings, stucco walls, slices of bread, anything with texture. I really just thought it was my imagination having fun - like it did when I was a kid - although it caught me by surprise, so that should have been a red flag. Thinking about it, I remember having a panic attack of sorts...I was maybe 19 at the time, living in the dorm at school where the ceilings are very textured, and I remember crying while my eyes flitted about the ceiling searching for a spot where I didn't see a face.
Let me be clear, though - I don't hear voices.
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