jump rope

I find myself unable to feed my soul
lithium dries my lips and the
words will not come
except as they please.

I feel like I'm jumping rope in slow motion,
like the flick of my wrist isn't enough
to cut the friction of oxygen,
thick in my lungs.
but movement without
friction is an impossibility,
like world peace or happy family.

that's just the first part. I don't feel particularly inclined to share the rest.

doc lowered my dose! I'm down to 600mg of lithium as opposed to 900mg. he said that should cut my side effects by 70-80%...brilliant! as far as moods go, I do feel better, like I am slowly approaching normal. I was tempted to put normal in quotes, but I suppose I won't exactly be my "normal" ever again, hah.

well that's depressing. I like myself when I'm "manic". except for the anger part. I guess I really have no idea what I'm talking about.  OH, after talking about it with my counselor and then again with my friend, I took a Myers-Briggs personality test - and I'm an ENFP. After reading the description, it sounds pretty damn accurate, haha.