Brian is home. I really missed him. He's 21 now! We're going to get tattoos and go out for drinks and hopefully, you know, actually spend time together. Usually when he's home I see him for 20 minutes and he's with his friends the rest of the time. Family dinner tomorrow!
I've had an off week, I think. I'm thinking in fragmented sentences. It's 2h30am and I have to be at the aud in 6 hours.
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Sunday, February 26, 2012
making me smile isn't hard...
...but sometimes people surprise me and the smiles mean more.
2 days until Brian comes home!
Sunday, February 19, 2012
My mom called me an adult today.
I like to think I'm good at making it up as I go, but up until this point in my life, I've never really had to. I've always been a planner. Sure, I can do spontaneous trips to the beach or up north to visit a friend, but I've never really had to play my whole life by ear. Let me rephrase that: I've never really let myself play my whole life by ear. I tend to be too fiscally cautious.
Of course, by fiscally cautious, I mean cheap. Now, that's not a negative by any means - in fact it's served me well thus far, which is why right now I have the freedom to work shows and do what I love for a living. And that's not to say I'm not taking the necessary steps to transfer my 403b from the clinic into a 401k from the schools or taking a less active role in my investments, it just means that I'm allowing myself to live in a more expensive house - in exchange for purchasing less clothing and switching to a cheaper cell phone company, among other things, haha.
I'm too distracted to finish this right now. It's late and Brian comes home in 9 days! Also, GOLD BODY SUIT.
Of course, by fiscally cautious, I mean cheap. Now, that's not a negative by any means - in fact it's served me well thus far, which is why right now I have the freedom to work shows and do what I love for a living. And that's not to say I'm not taking the necessary steps to transfer my 403b from the clinic into a 401k from the schools or taking a less active role in my investments, it just means that I'm allowing myself to live in a more expensive house - in exchange for purchasing less clothing and switching to a cheaper cell phone company, among other things, haha.
I'm too distracted to finish this right now. It's late and Brian comes home in 9 days! Also, GOLD BODY SUIT.
Monday, February 6, 2012
A Theatrical Chronography
At age 7, I took my first acting class.
At age 9, I teched my first show.
At age 11, I performed in my first musical.
At age 12, I saw my first Broadway cast.
At age 15, I got my first leading role.
At age 17, I had my first on-stage kiss.
At age 19, I assistant directed my first show.
At age 21, I stage managed my first show.
And now, at age 23, I have received my first credit as assistant lighting designer.
When I was younger, theatre was a source of great catharsis for me. I loved pretending to be someone else, I loved singing every thought and feeling, and, let's be honest, I loved being the center of attention (and still do! haha). Theatre taught me self-awareness, how to read people, and the value of silence, among other things. I just wish I could say it taught me comedic timing!
My mother always used to tell me to settle on a career, to just pick something, and my response generally expressed my inability to choose because I wanted to do everything! Now that I'm immersed in the technical aspects of theatre and have both time and opportunity to absorb as much knowledge as I can, I've realized that this is exactly why I am so enraptured with the entire theatrical process. I want to do everything, and theatre provides that for me. Every show gives me the chance to learn something new about almost anything; carpentry and construction, electrical, finance, music, sewing, dancing, speaking, light, composition, acoustics, computers, metalworking, combat, history, people.
Last night was the first opportunity I've had to sit down and actually watch Phantom of the Opera at Portage Central. I was absolutely blown away! The production value is incredible, the cast is fantastically talented, and it is amazing to see all of my hours of work come to fruition. "My" scenes - the ones where my lighting work played a major part - made my jaw drop. Seriously, the rooftop scene nearly made me cry! I am so lucky to have the opportunity to work with and learn from the rest of the staff on this production. They are not only brilliant at their respective jobs but also really incredible people.
I can't believe that this is what I do for a living.
At age 9, I teched my first show.
At age 11, I performed in my first musical.
At age 12, I saw my first Broadway cast.
At age 15, I got my first leading role.
At age 17, I had my first on-stage kiss.
At age 19, I assistant directed my first show.
At age 21, I stage managed my first show.
And now, at age 23, I have received my first credit as assistant lighting designer.
When I was younger, theatre was a source of great catharsis for me. I loved pretending to be someone else, I loved singing every thought and feeling, and, let's be honest, I loved being the center of attention (and still do! haha). Theatre taught me self-awareness, how to read people, and the value of silence, among other things. I just wish I could say it taught me comedic timing!
My mother always used to tell me to settle on a career, to just pick something, and my response generally expressed my inability to choose because I wanted to do everything! Now that I'm immersed in the technical aspects of theatre and have both time and opportunity to absorb as much knowledge as I can, I've realized that this is exactly why I am so enraptured with the entire theatrical process. I want to do everything, and theatre provides that for me. Every show gives me the chance to learn something new about almost anything; carpentry and construction, electrical, finance, music, sewing, dancing, speaking, light, composition, acoustics, computers, metalworking, combat, history, people.
Last night was the first opportunity I've had to sit down and actually watch Phantom of the Opera at Portage Central. I was absolutely blown away! The production value is incredible, the cast is fantastically talented, and it is amazing to see all of my hours of work come to fruition. "My" scenes - the ones where my lighting work played a major part - made my jaw drop. Seriously, the rooftop scene nearly made me cry! I am so lucky to have the opportunity to work with and learn from the rest of the staff on this production. They are not only brilliant at their respective jobs but also really incredible people.
I can't believe that this is what I do for a living.
Monday, January 2, 2012
Here is where I begin the year
Still nothing back from Matt after my response to his angry, holiday-hating letter.
Moving in a few short weeks! I need to start packing. And redo my budget. Speaking of...
Things I can potentially cut from my budget:
clothes, hair dye, Netflix, craft supplies (unless they start earning some revenue, of course)
Ways I can earn money to pay for things:
- Applied at a couple of places, Goodwill included.
- Going to start making aprons. A lot of aprons. The one I made mi madre for Christmas turned out so well I'm thinking about selling them.
THEATRE!:
- I was asked to help the lighting designer and ME for Phantom of the Opera at Portage Central! SO PUMPED! I anticipate a ton of learning coming my way.
- I'm possibly going to SM a cabaret for Center Stage in March!
- Not working at Farmer's Alley again until Light in the Piazza in June. I don't know if I can go that long without a show there! Maybe I can work God of Carnage in April as well.
- This will be the year I audition for All Ears. Seriously. I don't know why I've never actually done it before.
- Applying to be a class assistant for winter workshops down at the Civic. Never hurts!
Moving in a few short weeks! I need to start packing. And redo my budget. Speaking of...
Things I can potentially cut from my budget:
clothes, hair dye, Netflix, craft supplies (unless they start earning some revenue, of course)
Ways I can earn money to pay for things:
- Applied at a couple of places, Goodwill included.
- Going to start making aprons. A lot of aprons. The one I made mi madre for Christmas turned out so well I'm thinking about selling them.
THEATRE!:
- I was asked to help the lighting designer and ME for Phantom of the Opera at Portage Central! SO PUMPED! I anticipate a ton of learning coming my way.
- I'm possibly going to SM a cabaret for Center Stage in March!
- Not working at Farmer's Alley again until Light in the Piazza in June. I don't know if I can go that long without a show there! Maybe I can work God of Carnage in April as well.
- This will be the year I audition for All Ears. Seriously. I don't know why I've never actually done it before.
- Applying to be a class assistant for winter workshops down at the Civic. Never hurts!
Friday, December 30, 2011
good friends.
I've been told recently that I'm a good friend. Now this, coming from him, is because I've driven him home drunk on multiple occasions and drove/stayed with him in the ER a couple of months ago. But he's not the only one who's told me this. Rex thanked me for hanging out with him tonight, and he's even written a blog post about me!
Lately I've been thinking a lot about one of my closest friends, because I miss him and I feel like I've been neglecting our relationship. He is hands down the least judgmental person I've ever met, he gives great advice, he's fiercely loyal, and really is absolutely inspiring. I think that's the number one thing he's taught me; you don't have to save lives, write powerful words, or advocate for important causes to be inspiring. You just have to be a good person.
My favorite thing about us is how, regardless of time spent apart, we always fall right back into conversation like we spoke yesterday. I can honestly say that if, for some reason, I ever get married, I will most likely ask him to be my man of honor. I can't imagine my life without him.
So ok, maybe this all sounds a little creepy, or a little like I'm in love with him, but he has been my best friend for 15 years - and when you've only been alive for 23, that's a pretty long time.
This post didn't end up taking the direction I expected.
Drive fast, take chances.
Lately I've been thinking a lot about one of my closest friends, because I miss him and I feel like I've been neglecting our relationship. He is hands down the least judgmental person I've ever met, he gives great advice, he's fiercely loyal, and really is absolutely inspiring. I think that's the number one thing he's taught me; you don't have to save lives, write powerful words, or advocate for important causes to be inspiring. You just have to be a good person.
My favorite thing about us is how, regardless of time spent apart, we always fall right back into conversation like we spoke yesterday. I can honestly say that if, for some reason, I ever get married, I will most likely ask him to be my man of honor. I can't imagine my life without him.
So ok, maybe this all sounds a little creepy, or a little like I'm in love with him, but he has been my best friend for 15 years - and when you've only been alive for 23, that's a pretty long time.
This post didn't end up taking the direction I expected.
Drive fast, take chances.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
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